Today is Valentine’s Day! This year I will be celebrating alone without hubby since he will be overseas in Korat till mid of March 2006. Luckily, I still have Kaeden and the furkids with me.
I woke up as usual to prepare myself for work this morning. Getting out from my bed, I felt something flowing out from my V. Sensing something amiss; I rushed to the toilet to check and was shocked to see a big patch of fresh blood on my panty! For a brief moment, I just stood there crying not knowing what to do till Mum shouted at me to stop.
I grab the phone and called the emergency hotline asking them to contact Dr Ho while I rushed down to the hospital. In the cab, a lot of “What If?” flashes across my mind. I really cannot imagine losing Kaeden, especially now that he has become so much a part of me. I felt so helpless and frighten. I prayed to God seeking his help to keep Kaeden’s safe and for strength to go through whatever that is to come. Miraculously at this point, Kaeden gave me a kick. Tears flowed down my cheek upon knowing that he is still with me.
The trip to the hospital felt like the longest journey in my entire life….
Shortly after I reached the hospital, Dr Ho arrived. His presence managed to bring a sense of calmness and peace in me. I was arranged to be transferred to the Delivery Suite on the 3rd Level so that Dr Ho can better examine my condition. He conducted a V Examination on me to check the condition of my cervix for any sign of early labour. After which, an ultrasound scan was done to check for my baby’s heartbeat. Looking at that familiar flickering image on the screen, I know that my baby is still alive! Dr Ho gave me a pat on my shoulder to reassure me that everything is ok. He asked me to rest on bed for the time being and will arrange for a hormonal jab and some medicine to be given to me to aid in the support of my pregnancy.
The next few days staying at the hospital was rather boring, however, it did gave me the chance to have a good rest in bed away from those monstrous furkids at home. At times when I am alone, I really wish that Hubby was there by my side to offer me some comfort and support but I know for the sake of our boy, I have to be strong.
I was allowed to be discharged on Friday but before that I would need to have a scan at Dr Ho’s clinic first. It was also then that my mood dipped into an all-time low. To my horror, Dr Ho has requested for another dose of hormonal jab for me and somehow this was worse than the previous one that I had. It was so painful that I couldn’t sleep for 3 consecutive nights on the side where the injection was administered. I started crying uncontrollably behind the curtains back at the hospital ward. I can’t help but took pity at the situation that I landed myself into. Thankfully for the strength that God has given me, I am able to survive through without sinking into prenatal depression.
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